hmm.. long time nv blog le lahx.. haix.. nvm.. aniwae.. NOW IS HOLIDAYS...!!! hahaha... so swuang now lehx.. but too bad.. i din score well so i got grounded by my parents.. haix.. somemore need 2 go bac sch for xtra amaths lesson.. hmm.. my holidays gonna be tiring again.. nvm.. when did i ever enjoy.. hmmm.. i m tokin nonsense liaox.. betta shut my mouth.. yup..

i dunno if i shud keep on findin out abt tat thing not.. but i seem to forget everything after knowing them.. what i m doing now issit rite? hmmm.. mayb it is rite n mayb it is wrong.. i dunno.. but e real true fact is tat i wanna noe issit true or not.. but i cant find out animore things le.. cos everything has come to an end liaox.. how e hell m i suppose to find out.. ask her str8 in e face or wat? i realli dunno loh.. haix.. i realli dunno lahx.. i still got so many things in my mind e liaox.. mayb i shud jux don care abt everything n mia.. haix.. dunno lahx.. .

Sunday, May 23, 2004


6:49 PM

i hv been crying for e past few days... i dunno y.. but i jux cant stop tearing.. haix.. its so tough 2 show other ppl tat u are happi when u are sad.. its reali tough.. i m energy lost.. cos whenever i laugh or smile.. my energy is used up.. i m realli veri tired le.. tired of everything n anithing.. i don feel like goin 2 school on mon... can i?? if i were to go to school.. i hv to fake out a laugh or smile which i cant.. i m realli veri tired le.. no more energy to laugh or to smile.. so pls.. don make me laugh or smile le...

*peeps
heyx peeps.. sorie... realli sorie.. i promised u all not to step in there again unless i m 18.. but.. but.. but i stepped in.. i m realli sorie.. i noe i hv oreadi stepped in.. i cant changed tat fact.. but i m realli veri veri sorie.. i noe i hv let u all down.. noe tat u all will nv believe my promise again.. cos i hv been breaking my promise to u all a lot a lot of times le.. but.. reali sorie.. u all can don forgive me.. but.. yup.. all i wanna sae is SORIE... realli veri sorie...

*daddie
daddie!! now u noe y i keep chasing u away on tat dae.. yup.. sorie.. i din meant to.. i don wish anyone to see me liketat.. but still u saw it.. i din expect u to walk to where i was sittin.. haix.. nvm.. wat u told me tat dae.. i will rmb it in my mind.. crying doesnt solve anithing.. i noe.. but i wanna let everything out.. there are so many things in me.. i jux wanna fa xie.. yup.. anyway.. thanks.. yup... need anithing.. come find me.. i will be there for u.. yup.. thank you.. love ya...-hugs-

*charlotte
sorie to chao xing u on tat dae.. i din meant to.. yup.. but i was all alone.. yup.. so sorie... anyway... thanks for being there for me.. thanks.. yar.. love u loads...-hugs-

*bao bei
hmmm.. i noe u hv been trying ur veri veri best jux to make me laugh.. but sorie.. all ur efforts gone to drain.. i realli cant laugh or smile.. yup.. but i appreciate everything tat u hv done for me.. yup.. thanks for being there for me.. if u need anything.. come find me.. i will be there for u too.. yupx.. thanks for much.. love u loads..-hugs-

Tuesday, May 18, 2004


5:57 PM

wow... reached home damn early... hahas.. cos i pon e dental appointment... hahas... cant blame me lahx.. i scared of dental checkup.. fr young i hv a phobia of dental checkup.. haix... long long story.. so dui lian.. nvm.. hmmm.. reached home abt 3+.. heex... one more reason is cos my mom is home.. so i cant go out... haix... but anyway.. i don go out.. still got ppl come my hse de lahx.. hahas.. my family come my hse n eat.. so cool.. den play e suan ming thingy.. so cool.. daddie keep critisizing it.. sae i veri slow tis n tat tis n tat.. aiyo.. in summary.. she find tat i veri slow etc.. hahas.. den we play die ti... hahas.. laugh n laugh non-stop loh.. heex.. cos i m realli veri noisy.. heex... so cool.. heex.. den they go home loh.. now i m left in my hse.. haix.. nvm.. maybi m going to monks wit miao n daddie n kor kor n frens loh.. but not confirm yet.. cos hvnt find lodgin.. hmmm... tink shud be able to go lahx.. heex.. so hapi..

Monday, May 17, 2004


9:50 PM

heex... played bball today..!! finally.... my itchy hands are not itchy anymore... haha... cool... heex... veri fun today... i laugh n laugh non-stop like a mad dog... heex... cant believe miao so scared of e ball haha... hmmm... great day spent today... spent my day playin bball... so cool... reali veri fun... thx ppl... thx for playin bball wit me.. me veri hapi.. hahas... yup... me veri hapi... u all made my day... actualli i m veri pissed off today cos of U KNOW WHO.. hahas... sounds like voldermot... okies... nvm... yar.. cos of tat person.. my day was spolit... but actualli was spolit le lahx... jux tat.. tat person spoil it even more.. haix... don care le lahx.. hahas.. i m a free person... so cool.. i hv a new starhub no. liaox.. got free incomin call fr 7pm-7am.. yeahx... can tok until so song... but i don tink so.. cos i doubt my mom will let me tok until so late.. sianx.. hmmm... dunno if i shud go clubbin tis friday.. need a place to stay.. but cant find one.. hmmm.. if i cant find den i will not go le.. heex... see how lahx... hahas...

Friday, May 14, 2004


9:35 PM

yeah!! my exams are OFFICIALLY over!! hahas... so hapi kaez... so hapi... hahas... but one scary thing is comin rite up.... which is takin bac of papers... tis comin thurs n fri... i m goin 2 die till then... haix... nvm.. i still hv few more days to enjoy b4 i get real bad scoldin.. haix... i got a veri bad feelin abt my results... haix.. nvm... every time e same results all not good de... nv once get real good results de.. haix... don care abt it le lahx... i m goin 2 spend my few days as hapily as possible... hahas..

after my exam.. went macs... met bao bei... heex... she was standin outside e toilet... hahas.. i was in e toilet wit calista... den she called.. i wanna go out den open e door... hahas.. she was standin outside usin e fone... hahas... den play here play there... heex... so cool... hahas... den finally... miao decided on everything on sentosa thing... after tat went straight home.. change n pack... went out meet miao.. hahas.. den we are on our way 2 sentosa.. so cool... den e mrt took loads of pics.. ppl will tink we zi lian.. hahas... miao brought liqor for me... we pour e liqor inside our drinks.. drank on our way there.. took e bus... went to siloso beach.. went toilet to change.. den went into e waters.. play n play n play... we were piggybackin each other.. den laugh n laugh non-stop... ppl around us look liaox.. laugh at us oso... hahas... den play n play n play... took loads of pics... but miao forgot to charge her camera.. den no more batt liaox... so sad... went to change into new sets of clothes.. den went compass.. eat liaox we go bac le.. hahas... so simple... cos we are too tired liaox... hahas... den we walk walk a while den we go bac le... hahas... reach home damn tired... but still i wanna blog tis down.. cos tis day will foreva be in mind... heex...

*miao.. heyx... thanx for today... had loads of fun... hahas... veri fun... thx so much... heex... next time we go there again kaez... i noe u got change colour veri hapi... but i oso got change colour hahas... tink i don hv?? my whole body got diferent colurs.. hahas... anyway... thx for today.. veri hapi.. tot tat oni e 2 of us will be veri borin.. but still is real fun.. hahas... thx...

Thursday, May 13, 2004


9:37 PM

todae hvin so much fun.. hahas... playin n playin all day... wanted 2 meet miao at compass de... but haix.. in e end... nv... heex... sorie... hahas... reali hv lots of fun... so crap... we sang out one song n den recorded e one we sang inside e com... den they hear le... laugh n laugh non-stop... so diu lian loh.... cos got 2 of e recordings is oni my voice... after they hear it... they burst out laughin....!! even when i m at e livin room... my god... so diu lian... lolx... den watch movie.. play com... dis n tat dis n tat... fun fun fun... all i can sae... heex... when home... mother nag n nag non-stop... haix... nvm... had a great day todae.. so nth can spoil my mood... heex....

*[crab crab]hahas... i noe tis is not u all names lahx... but... hahas... nvm... u all shud noe who u are loh.. heex... had a great day today... hahas.. thx for all of that.. thx so mucchhie... heex.. u all mux study hard kaez.. cannot slack le horxh pls... i m oreadi slackin le... u all musnt slack... yup... hao hao nian shu.. heex.. after i get my results.. i m goin 2 nag like a lao tai puo liaox... becareful of ur ears.. haha... n also.. forget to tell u all... hmmm... sorie abt my sister's attitude... veri sorie... she is siaox one lahx.. so don take it to heart kaez.. yup... den *U... i nvm de... as long as u two hapi den i m hapi liaox lahx... haha... so yupx... u all mux hapi kaez.. no matter wat happens.. yup... heex... got anithing can come n find me... no need 2 shy de lahx.. haha...mux take care.. yeahx...

Wednesday, May 12, 2004


4:59 PM

bad day for me... veri bad... hvin lots of disputes... haix... e whole day tinkin abt myself... how i hv change to.. guess i hv reali changed ba... from a guai guai prefect to a real bad gerl... haix... i hv been tinkin abt my past... lots of bad n good memories... my head is real painful now... haix... i cant stand myself... so irritating.. always makin ppl angry... always do the wrong thing at the wrong time... so sickenin... i m such a freakin hell person.... my god... i cant myself... hatin myself forever... how i wish i can murder myself..

let mi ask u a qes..
if i were to hv a car accident.. and i lost all my memories... don even noe who u are.. what would u do..??

Tuesday, May 11, 2004


11:29 AM

haix... so long nv blog liaox... my blogger goin 2 rot like dunno wat le... haix... my internet line has been confiscated by my mom... haix... jux bcos of e exams... sianx... nv use com for so long.... miss my com so muchhie.... heex... too bad.... wat i m usin now is not my com... haha... is hazel's... haha... my hei zao... nice name... heex... cos i create e name for her de.... we are e herbs family... haha.... hei zao duian zhu jiao.... haha.... obvious zhu jiao is me lahx... haha.... yeah!! my exams goin 2 over veri veri soon... haha... can play le!!! hehehehe!!! so hapi.... flyin up e heaven liaox.... haha... but siaNX... cannot use com stilll now my com got virus.... argh!! ppl.... pls becareful of this virus called sasser.. haha... tats e virus i got.... haix.... sianx... now i hv 2 fix e com when is not me tat got e com into virus de.... haix.... sianx... nvm... i wan my $100.. haha.... i hv 2 bei e san zi jing... haha... it seems tough to me... but... nvm..... i will jia you.. for my $100 sake... heex.. sounds act if i m a money lover... hahas... dunno.. lahx.... veri tired... so many things clog up in my head... goin 2 burst any moment... haix.. nvm.. i m goin 2 chiong liaox... hahas... so cool... but hvnt find ppl yet.. haix.. ppl wanna chiong... come n find me... den we all go chiong together kaez... but one veri important thing... i cant buy liqor.... so oso hv 2 find ppl help us buy... so yup... feel free to come n find me if u wanna chiong.. i hv lotsa free time le... n my seafood family... u all promise me something le hor... my pasta.. my starbucks coffee.. yup... u all shud noe wat i m tokin abt ritex... heex.... i wan everything b4 i go oversea kaez... thx... but all i noe is there is no time for me... i tink i will be veri busy... hahas... so u all mux make appointment... hahas... nvm.... heex... so hapi... exams goin 2 over le... hahahahs....