i'm crying now. rightt at this moment. your neos withh me are pasted rightt in front of me. every memory is still fresh in my head. no one can touch that memories. is too precious. i cant afford to lose it. cos i'm only living for that memory. how i wish i can turn back time to those times we spend together. how i wish nth has happened. how i wish i din tell you i want to be a crook in the first place. will things be the same or better? do you know? you're the one who shared most memories with me. you're the one who first let me out of the well and take me to a high place to see the world. you shared me happiness and sorrows. remembering all those times we spend together i real pain. i really pains in my heart. i yearns to befriend with you agnn. but it seems so faraway. too far. no matter how much i stretch i still cant seem to reach it. and everytime i tried to stretch out my hand to reach for you. you move even further. i dunno why things will turn out to be liketat. is this the type of ending you want? i don want this. i want to be in our past. as close as before. but i don think we can. our trust is broken by me. i know you're disappointed. i know how devasted you are. i know how hurt you are. fancy being lied by your close friend. if it was me. i doubt i can accept the fact and reconcile with that person. but i know you;ve tried. i see you trying. i'm happy even if we're not back to as close as before. but still i can see the both of us trying. trying to reach for each other agn. but once agn i broke it. i broke it with my own hands. all i can say is sorry. but i still want the friendship back. i know is very selfish of me. but if you don want the friendship back i have nth to say. really. i'm not gg to force you anymore.
i rmb those times we spend at your hse. at compass at town at senosa and everywhere. everywhere i go i can see our memories there. our song "hui you na me yi tian" "say goodbye" everytime i hear these songs. my tears flow down. i still can rmb. i was at kbox and i sang you this song thru the phone. can you rmb? we always sing this song. one line by one line. when you forgot the lyrics i help you continue. whereever we go. we sing this song. no matter when we;re tanning or outing. all of these memories can you rmb? is so unforgettable. is still so fresh in my head. never am i gg to forget all these memories. cos there's only me and you.
also. do you rmb. starting of this yr i said we're gonna go clubbing together for christmas and new year eve. will that happen this yr? i really hope it'll happen. will my birthday wish come true?

Saturday, February 19, 2005


12:58 AM

hmmm so sad! i never go clubbing todayy when i can come out. gods. school still the same. got back my ss paper. i failed by 1/2 mark. haix. sadd. one more thing. she's gone! i'm sadded. haix. yup.. den got Ld and i went home bathed and went out. hees. went town with van to catch "a moment to remember" cried like shitt in the cinema. haix. the story is very nice. but touching. last time i always wanted to get a accident and make all of my memories go away. but now. i don think i want. cos there are great memories in my head. great and unforgettable. really. thanks everyone for making all these memories. i don want it to be thrown away! hees. greatt! yupp. den we took neos and walk ard with vic and joanne. hahas. den walk to meridian. den took a cab backk. hahas.

Thursday, February 17, 2005


7:57 PM

school was alrightt thou. nth much happen. first time receive praise from hou lao shi. hahas. she say i'm more obedient this yr. hahas. good. what a good and encouraging praise for me. i;m so touched! hahas. den got show and tell. hahas. i want to read this book "how i become stupid" it sounds interesting to me thou. hahas. cool. hees. den during pe i wrote my speech for my show and tell. den after recess was my turn. hurrs. i told my story about me and miao. guess what. everyone was like take a recorder take this down let her hear! i nearly cried. my tears are coming out le. but still i controlled it. haix. really i treasure her alot. haix. den after that during pc and cme they were all talking about friends!!!! gods! i nearly cried! haix. den after school i went to heartland eat lunch with cal. haix. two of us are very bad mood. haix. what a badd day for us? haix.

Monday, February 14, 2005


5:50 PM

HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

alrightts. today was quite a badd dayy thou. haix. in the morning we all had entertainment. cos of total defence dayy! hahas. the show was very funny and nice. hees. was laughing all the way. hahas. den go back class for amaths. guess what. i failed as i was expecting but i just need 2 marks more and i'll pass my test! i did better than i expected i should say. hmmm. trying to encourage myself abit. hees. gonna try harder for next test. yeahhs. definitely i'll. hahas. den recess with van. same old thingy. hahas. mrs ng came in asked me why i never go for Ld. hmmm. i went visiting? but she don accept this kinda lame excuse i suppose. hahas. den have lit. oh mans. first time i do finish that ws within that period you know? hees. great. den went to the toilet with van cos she says that she has stomache? so went to toilet. waited for her. den it was maths lesson. guess what? we were caught for being late?! haix. den scolded like shitt. was even send down to the hod room. those who never do their work were also send down. great. half the class were in front of the hod room. and just nice mrs rajah walk pass! -smacks head why so suayy. den mrs wong complain to mrs rajah. haix. den after some scolding we went up first. those who never hand in hw had to give her a deadline. went up but we cant go in. we have to stay outside. slack abit. den received news that she is on her way up. stand properly. and finally she realsied that me and van was innocent. so we were able to sit. hahas. great. but she still din start lesson. cos ppl were talking away? we wasted 2 whole periods doing nth about maths! are we going to have enough time for everything? i don think so. -faints haix. real studying starts rightt now. no more playing. thats what i know. haix. guess i think i'm gg to use this time to mia. haix. den went for chi lesson. got scolded agnn cos got ppl never hand in edusave form? haix. agnn. was kinda moody after all of the scolding. hahas. den went to eat our special lunch tgt agnn! hahas. this time dunno why we are not as full as the other time. hahas. so funny. den make our way home. hees.



for you*
hmmm. i dunno if you will still read my blog anot. but yup. trying my luck see if you will read it. hmmm. truthfully. i really din know what was gg on. how come we will end up not talking to each other? i dunno why. i know there are alot of misunderstandings. all of us know that. can we just sit down and talk? do you know ever since that incident. we have already been far apart. now this matter makes it worst. isnt it? how i wish nth of this will happen. den we wun become like now. don even talk when we see each other. treating as we don even know each other. a 10yr friend. liketat gone? i don think is worth it. can we sit down and talk? when you see this if you wanna sit down and talk pls contact me.

Sunday, February 13, 2005


12:40 AM

yeah yeahh i'm back from my aunt place. hees. had a great time todayy. hahas. althou some ppl aeroplane me but still yup. a nice day thats all.

early morning went to gym with my cousin. pig she was late. hahas. i was on the dot. hahas. in the morning my voice was horrendous but still i want to go kbox. hahas. long time never go gym le. the machines somehow i've forgotten how to use them hahas. so lame lohh. after gym went to sit swing with her. gods. we catch up hell LOT! hahas. she know things of mine and i know things of hers! hees. feel so nice talking to her. just so comfortable. hees. thanks girl. ((: den she went to my house for lunch. my sis friends came! arhhh!! so damn many ppl. hahas. but i don give a damn to them. i just continue to watch my vcd with my cousin. actually we wanted to go to kbox and sing until 3am. but in the end i have to go to my aunt place gamble agnn. she said she did not have enough fun last night?! hahas. whatever my hands are itchy too. hees. den waited for her to call. but no a single contact from her. give up waiting. my parents were asking is ur friend coming. i told them a straight no. haix. nevermind i shall not let her spoil my dayy. den my cousin stay at my house until 7++ hahas. den we headed down to my aunt hse. finally she called but she sound so pissed and somemore i'm outside so forget it. hahas. den reach there. my mum forgotten that she is suppose to ask me to bring cards. cos my aunt don have any complete set of cards?! hmmm. den she took out everything. i sort out. add here and there. ahahas. den i turn back. i gave out a very loud laugh. everyone tot what happen. they saw and all laughed too. hahas. is all diff background. hahas. so forget it. we started playing. hees. play play play until 11.35. hahas. i won agnn. quite alot. but i don wanna reveal now. in case anything happens? hahas. yepps. wonder when am i gonna continue. hees. on mon is v.dayy. have you all prepared your presents? i haven buy mine yet. hahas. think i'm gonna buy it tmr. yepps. you all will get your v.dayy gift. hahas. come find me on mon. hees. wonder where am i gg on mon. who am i going to spend it with? S:

Saturday, February 12, 2005


2:04 PM

whoo hoo!! guess what?! i won $30plus ytd!!! hahahas. damn happy cann?! tonight still playing agnn. isnt this great?! yesh! of course. i'm gonna win alot. cos i need to buy alot of stuffs hahahahs. yeahh. i can buy another billabong skirt. hahahas. one more strikeoff on my wishlist. hees. so happy!!! yeahhs. i gonna prepare for ppl to com le. hees. buahhhxxx.

Wednesday, February 09, 2005


9:12 PM

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!


i went to chinatown last night. is like damn squeezy lahh. do you know what? i nearly kissed a dog!! what more is the dog's tongue is outt?! hahas. damn funny.. saw fireworks! hees. thats what i wanted to see long time ago cann. finally i got to see it le. hees. den walk ard. but is was too crowded so went off home. reach home ard 2++ went to sleep ard 3++. den my father woke all of us up like 9?! i'm so tired! not enough sleep! hahas. thats so crazy!! hahas. i wore my billabong skirt and my bum razorback todayy ((: went straight to my grandma hse. my uncle is lat agnn. hahas. i will have another feast agnn next week. hahas. his punishment. yeahhs! hahas. everyone saw me today was like very shocked. bcos i'm no longer that ah bueii okayys. they were shocked of what i'm wearing too loh. hahas. the whole world say i'm thin! -evil laugh hahas. i'm so happy. but still i'm dieting. din really eat much today thou. dunno why. hahas. was so sleepy. sleep everywhere i go like a drug addict cann? haix. luckily i wore what i wore todayy. todayy is like damn hot. is i were to wear long sleeve pls buy me a airconditioned coffin. i'll feel better. hahas. hmmm. i think i shall not talk all these bu ji li words le. hahas. sianx. i have to go back to school on fri agnn. haix. thats irritating. somemore fri got compre test!! gods! this is driving me crazyy. haix. den my relatives are coming my hse on fri to gamble? crapp!! but i'm gg to gamble too. hahas. small tiny try. den i'll stop. hees. ((:

Sunday, February 06, 2005


1:57 PM

hahas. yesterdayy too tired to blog le. so yepps. shall update now instead. hees.

afternoon go church teach little kids tuition as usual. hahas. was late. sorry. but yarr. they are quite guai that dayy so was alrightt. hahas. den went off to bishan to meet adeline and cathleen. hahas. stupid idiot never meet me! hahas. den sitted at the mrt wait for the both of them to come. hahas. den they reached they called me. i was rightt in fron tof them but they cant seem to see me.. den when they saw me they were like suprised that i was in front of them?! hahas. den went off to city hall to meet belize and dawn. hahas. everyone was wearing white and i'm the only one who was wearing blackk! but i brought my sch shirt. hahas. den we went to bk and eat.. ate le den went off to aljunied. took a train there.. wth. we were standing in the middle of the two cabins. den i was standing rightt in the middle.. when the train stopped.. it kiap my hair! ouch! damn pain lohh. and my hair was like stuck there. hahas. laugh non-stop. hahas. den maked alot of new friends. hahas. there are nice peeps. hahas. den we started gg round the blocks. hees. is fun you know. but too bad most ppl not at home. and got shutted off when i'm talking! damn irritating can?! haix. but still got ppl who are nice. gave us quite lots of things. hees. den finsh ard 8.30 belize say she wants to go clubbing?! hahas. den we wanted to go cathleen hse. but i decided to be a good girl i went home straight instead. hahas. bathed and everything. went straight to bedd. hahas. but stupid! someone called about 1++ freaking hell. my nice dream was interupted. hahas. den i slept agnn. ignoring what she asked me to do.. hahas. den freak she called agnn!!!! dragged myself up and went down to call her. wa lau. den chased her to sleep. now my turn cant sleep. crapp cann? until 3 something den fell aslp lohhh. haix...

nth much todayy. just staying at home and do my hw ahahas. i'm so tired... haix.. i'm gg for this cip agnn!!! is funn!!!!! yeahhh. i'm gg next week.. i have to persuade my mum for that. haix..

Friday, February 04, 2005


11:48 PM

gods!! i failed my maths test can?! cos of my cumulative frequency!!! failed by 1/2 mark.. sobsob. haix. forget about it. nth much of things happen todayy. still the same old me agnn. hahas. just that today.. i din wanted to go for Ld but.. mrs ng asked me to go todayy during her lesson. so i have got no choice but to tell her i'm gg.. bio was funny.. we were watching a show about food and bacteria. hahas. was just enjoying myself behind with adeline cathleen and belize. hahas. adeline took my yogurt and handed up to teacher!!! make me and cathleen have no mark!!! pig!!!! i have to bring agnn next fri lohh. haix. den idle here and there. went off for lunch with van. talked. until 3+ den she went off for her np i went off for Ld.. Ld did nth todayy. came up with topics for the news letter. hahas. den 4.30 went off home. hees. so early. den she called. she ask me go her house and wait for her. make my way to her hse. waited outside for her to get change. so long!!! waited about 15 mins and more? hahas. den took bus to my hse. passed the sch and so many ppl bored the bus. hahas. damn noisy lahh. hahas. den was quite irrtated with them. hahas. den walked home. mum say she is gg out. so she came my hse ((: hahas. den she was using comp the whole dayy lahh. actually she is suppose to tuition me? hahas. den left about 740 liketat.. send her off. reached home my mum was home alrdy. hahas.


how i wish i'll be the one in ur heart. but badd. i'm not. guess i'll have to let go..

Tuesday, February 01, 2005


4:46 PM

hee. reached home so early todayy. hahas. i know i'm a good girl. amaths. no hope. -cries i think i'm gg to flung lots of test lohh. haix. better not talk about it anymore. got back geog paper todayy. i passed but not very well done is bcos of my graph interpet wrongly. haix. stupid. of not i can get higher lohhh~! haix. den after sch went to eat. hee. shall keep this a secret hahas. tao yann. hahas. den calista came my hse to use the comp. hahas. she is damn high todayy can? she wants to kiong kan me!!! arhhh!! hahas. now i'm alone at home le. hahahs. i'm safe and sound. hahas.




[[my PROMISE for you]]
i ah HE promise that i'll eat that special meal with you once every month for our lifetime. no matter what happens. if we don get to have our speacial meal together means our friendship has come to an end. i don think that day will come cos you're always my special one who goes thru thick and thin with me. thanks for being there for me. i'll never forget the memories we spent together. thanks ((: